This morning at 5:30 am my life changed forever. After a very exhaustive journey towards expanding our family I finally saw something I accepted may never occur = two pink beautiful lines.
I think time stopped the moment those lines appeared. 
I was ready to toss yet another pregnancy test in the trash and wait once more, but God has other plans! Apparently I am more than 4 days late for a reason. The feeling was nothing more than pure shock. I am PREGNANT? No. Is that real? No. Wait it’s really there! The lines appeared instantly, no need to wait 3 minutes for the results. I am pregnant. WOW.
I immediately jumped into the shower and ran out the door after I kissed Ray goodbye and waited patiently for my RE office to open so I could get bloodwork done. Next I spoke with my manager to tell her of my news and inform her that I was taking the day off. She took one look at the photo of my bfp and said “oh honey, you are very pregnant!” Wow. Before I left the office I uploaded my beautiful bfp to share with my peaches. They were just as equally shocked as I was and I have over 65 heartfelt congratulations and tear jerking responses from the women whom I have come to love and lean on for yrs and yrs. There is no doubt I will print those replies out so our baby will know just how long we’ve awaited this day.
As I left for the drive to the RE office pregnant brain snuck up on me. I couldn’t follow the simplest directions to the office which is conveniently located off Mopac. After getting my paperwork I drove to CPL to leave my sample and then walked around many different shops passing time. Meanwhile Ray had gotten off work today at 1pm and had no clue any of this was going on. I started texting him to keep track of his location. I wanted to sneak home and surprise him but how?
I arrived at Michael’s and decided to put together a shadow box keepsake of our little miracle. I carefully selected a set of pewter baby molds, opaque background with baby footprints, a verse that fit Ray’s faith regarding this journey so very perfectly and last but not least, the golden ticket..ok pee stick but still, its a beauty to me.
Instead of setting up a dinner at a bistro, I went home and waited for Ray. He walks in wondering why I was home early and I said I had a migraine. Ok little white lie! He immediately notices the gift bag on the loveseat but doesn’t inquire about it. Personally, I can’t take it anymore so I tell him I have a present for him. Together we sit on the couch and he reads the card. It makes no mention of a baby, but I did underline key words that will make sense in retrospect once he realizes the news. Before he’s done reading the card he’s in tears. I quickly look away so as not to give him a clue about what’s going on. He reaches into the bag, can feel its a picture frame and says oh so ironically,
“Is it a picture of us?!!”
Heh. Well honey yes it is, but I say nothing and let him proceed. He pulls the frame out of the tissue paper, flips it over and what seemed like an eternity to put two and two together. He looks at me with disbelief and says “Really? Really?!!!” His eyes well up with tears and he hugs me so tightly , kisses my neck and tells me he loves me over and over. Of course I start to sob. It’s still all so very surreal. God is so good.
After a few moments he gets up, looks at the frame again and starts to happily hop around the living room saying “There’s gonna be a baby in the house! Princess, there’s gonna be a baby in the house!” He sits on the floor, fidgets and grins like crazy and repeats the happy dance. Ah, I waited for that moment for so so long and it was so worth it! I”ll never forget it.
Well, here is the miracle. I”m still in awe. We know what a blessing and miracle this is. Praise God.
My first set of beta’s are promising:
HCG -598 ; Progesterone 41
Lets pray for 48 hour doubling!
And for those who are curious about my EPS:
major blubbering a week before bfp
all normal PMS signs gone (sore boobs, sore back)
tmi – gassy (oh the joy!)
no bloating of the abdomen
spotting on cd26 (very very light pink/brown cm – one tissue wipe)
that’s it! I felt SO very “normal” and still do, minus the missing AF.
Current weight :120lbs
