Life is so mysterious. How does my belly continue to grow, how do I eat like I’m eating for 5 and yet gain no weight? My feet are slowly disappearing from view and its just so much fun watching it all happen. I wanted to mark just what I’m seeing these days when I get up in the morning before I stuff my face with fruitloops.
and one more that I took out back
Cravings. I’ve always wondered what odd things I’d crave during pregnancy. I read somewhere that some women crave non-edible items like chalk, paint, dirt…ew…really? Alas, my cravings aren’t insane but normal and I suppose that’s good. Today I crave pizza and pizza-ish things.
Lets not also forget good ol re-heated Pizza Hut pan pizza
Makes you want to lick the monitor doesn’t it?
And its only 1:30…technically I’m not even on lunch yet…
oh yes, lets not forget the best part of this morning:
Week 17 : Mind boggling factoid of the week: if you’re having going to have a little girl, her ovaries have already produced millions of primordial egg cells, which, within a few weeks, will develop into actual eggs! Phew… just wait till she’s a teenager eh?
For the last week I”ve been waiting to reach 17 weeks, to see if I would feel all those textbook signs of my bebe moving around in there and finally yesterday I knew we were playing a game with each other because I felt “tiny bubbles”. That cute lil feeling that you know isn’t gas (because by now you just feel the difference, ugh) and because only a baby in your belly would play around with you when you poke and prod around. Even Kim felt it earlier in the afternoon and then Ray did last nite. Really exciting moments! Can’t wait until I feel a real kick without bugging my baby to come out and play! 
Tonight Ray really wanted to go out for some Jason’s deli, but I just got home and wanted to do nothing more than get into a comfy pair of pjs…and this is when I realized that I’ve outgrown my tank and how awesome ribbon tied pants are. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. Finally comfort. Those jeans are just getting too tight!
And here we are at 17wks1d – comfy and content and waiting for dinner to arrive.
Well I have to post this from the pregnancy point of view since i’m only 4 mo along right now
1) Not having any clue I was even pregnant to begin with. I thought after 4 yr 8 mo TTC that i would JUST KNOW when we finally caught the egg. The bfp hit me like a dumptruck. Everything I expected in the 2ww of that cycle NEVER happened. The one thing I do recall was complaining to DH that I wished his boys wouldn’t hang out in there for a couple days after we BD and then come flooding out when I”m wearing a new pair of pretty panties, but now I think those boys were in there cheering the “winner” along.
2) The fact that I have had no nausea. I was certain I’d hate food and puke my brains out. Nope. the opposite. My heartburn is gone and i WANT more spicy stuff. This is where I am most of the time at home.
3) I can’t stand sweets right now. I LOVE the smell, but once I have more than a couple bites of anything : cakes, cupcakes, icecream, cookies…its blah city. I don’t puke but I just need to get it out of sight.
4) The lowerback pain – I thought this would happen when I really got a belly! I have gained 0 lbs so far (yup at 4 mo no gain, hate me I know) and yet, my back hurts like I”m carrying my DH on my back.
5) Body temperature – WHY THE HELL IS IT SO HOT IN HERE?! AND WHY IS IT SO COLD IN HERE NOW?! Seriously, I think I just need to buy some stripper wear to easily remove and reclasp my clothing.
6) Vivid dreams – whoa. nuff said.
7) PMS x 20 – Bitchiness turns to tears. For anything. Even when my computer won’t shut down fast enough. Sigh.
8.) Skin and hair changes – Where was that instant pg glow the first 3 mo? Pfft…instead I dealt with baby acne on my face, dry itchy skin and my hair trying to turn into a mop of curls ( I blame my mother for that one). Now in my 4th mo. my skin is finally becoming appealing again, I”m glowing a bit more and I’ve learned to just work with the curls instead of spending 30 min trying to flat iron them all out with the Chi.
9) Fear – fear of the unknown. whether I”m taking enough vitamins, eating the right stuff, getting enough rest and most of all being mentally ready to be a mom.
10) Which brings me to the big one – LABOR. Knowing that I AM going into labor in a few months. No if ands or butts about it. I will be pushing out a watermelon outta my little lemon. Mommy hold me.
A new photo marking 4 months
Warning : if you’re at work and some nudity would freak out your boss, don’t scroll further. I can only afford to save for diapers but not to cover your paycheck.
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I was hesitant about posting this next one, but I feel that the caption accompanying this image captures the spirit of the image perfectly.
During the summer months, I always love wearing turquoise. It reminds me of the beach, our trip to the Riviera Maya, staring into the depths of beautiful turquoise lake waters at Emerald Bay (ok that’s more green hence the name) but still..I think this color rocks. Before I realized I was pregnant, I had already shopped for my bikini for our trip next month to Cabo San Lucas and I really really love it so I’m worried I won’t fit into it when we get to 19wks by then. My fears were put to rest when I tied it on today and viola, it fits! And while I certainly don’t even look at day pregnant in this photo at the river, when you look at the next photo its apparent that when I stand up gravity gives this pregnancy away. Both photos taken hours apart.
Taken by daddy at 16wk1day in our backyard.
Welcome to my 15th week of pregnancy where I have already created a nice pathway in the carpets leading to all bathroom in the house.
Saturday was pretty busy for us. We went to San Antonio to visit my mom and grandma for a while, went shopping and to run some errands and then raced back to Lakeway to meet with family for dinner before they left on a cruise to Alaska. My mom was excited to see that my lil bump is starting to show more. And although in this photo it looks like we coordinated clothes, I promise we didn’t. Total fluke. Guess we both like carribean colors in the summer
Don’t mind the crazy wind hair. There was a storm coming thru and we looked like pecked hens lol
Well, we finally arrived at Lakeway after a 2 hour drive from San Antonio and met at Delilah and Akamu’s house. The short drive from their home to The Oasis was nice and scenic which was great for a starving preggy woman. Look at the beautiful view we had from our table.
They call this place the best sunset in Austin and you can see why .
and here is the latest belly pic. I think I looked bigger at 13wks because I took that photo after I had dinner. And these shorts have a much thicker waistband.
and here is yet another onesie that Aunt Kim bought the baby.
There are women that become mothers without effort, without thought, without patience or loss and though they are good mothers and love their children, I know that I will be better.
I will be better not because of genetics, or money or that I have read more books but because I have struggled and toiled for this child.
I have longed and waited. I have cried and prayed.
I have endured and planned over and over again.
Like most things in life, the people who truly have appreciation are those who have struggled to attain their dreams.
I will notice everything about my child.
I will take time to watch my child sleep, explore and discover. I will marvel at this miracle every day for the rest of my life.
I will be happy when I wake in the middle of the night to the sound of my child, knowing that I can comfort, hold and feed him and that I am not waking to take another temperature, pop another pill, take another shot or cry tears of a broken dream. My dream will be crying for me.
I count myself lucky in this sense; that God has given me this insight, this special vision with which I will look upon my child that my friends will not see.
Whether I parent a child I actually give birth to or a child that God leads me to, I will not be careless with my love.
I will be a better mother for all that I have endured. I am a better wife, a better aunt, a better daughter, neighbor, friend and sister because I have known pain.
I know disillusionment as I have been betrayed by my own body. I have been tried by fire and hell many never face, yet given time, I stood tall.
I have prevailed.
I have succeeded.
I have won.
So now, when others hurt around me, I do not run from their pain in order to save myself discomfort. I see it, mourn it, and join them in theirs.
I listen.
And even though I cannot make it better, I can make it less lonely. I have learned the immense power of another hand holding tight to mine, of other eyes that moisten as they learn to accept the harsh truth and when life is beyond hard. I have learned a compassion that only comes with walking in those shoes.
I have learned to appreciate life.
Yes I will be a wonderful mother.
Author Unknown
This wasn’t me since 1) I don’t like wasting money on pee sticks and 2) I only needed 1 test to confirm cuz there was no denying that line!
and that’s pregnancy so far up through week 14 !
Saturday mornings were always pretty fun for me. I got up at 7am and met up with Michelle and we would “woo hoo” aka “go to garage sales.” The term woo hoo stuck after we’d drive around , see a sign and say “woo hoo” and Nina, Chelle’s daughter, would repeat eagerly in the backseat “WOO HOO!” It was funny and soon enough Nina would ask us when we were going woo hooing again. It had been a good while since my lazy butt got up to go on a Saturday morning mission, but it was so beautiful this morning I couldn’t resist.
In the past, I always went for household stuff. Looking for great furniture at a steal of a price, but this time we’ve got a new mission : BABY STUFF.
Now, I’m only 14wks today and we still don’t know what the sex of the baby is. My eyes tend to gravitate towards boys stuff ALL the time, while Rays gravitate towards girls stuff. I know that today I need to stay pretty neutral in my finds until we find out what we’re having. I thought this was going to prove to be too tough to find anything to bring home. SHA-RIGHT! Who am I kidding. Chelle and I are the queens of woo hooing and we scored today.
I spent less than $20 today and left with 20+ onesies, new burp clothes, blankets and TEENY TINY socks galore! I also found the absolute CUTEST Longhorn cap with Texas embroidered on it and a Longhorn logo..a perfect match to the newborn booties that Kim bought the baby and perfect for a newborn head. AWWW!
Yea, because I have yet to dread doing baby laundry I happily came home to put this to wash. Hehe. And yea, there are a few things in blue there that I just had to get..just in case.. 
Last weekend I went to the outlet mall to Papaya to look for a couple pairs of shorts for me since I have none. Silly me sold them all and gave the rest away when I lost too much weight. I kinda need those size 5’s back right now. My curiosity took me to Carters where I bought “my first bear”
Isn’t he the cutest?! Its soooo soft and Princess really wants to snuggle up, but this is for the new baby of the house. I really should get her one of her own so she won’t feel left out.
Oh yea I almost forgot about this beauty I found!
I’m not really big on sweets, especially now that I’m pregnant. Most things sweet make me go “ick” right now (yes, I know I”m totally weird in that aspect of pregnancy huh?) BUT I saw this cake and I thought to myself..
OH ,I WANT THIS FOR MY BABY SHOWER!!!
Isn’t it beautiful?! I have never seen a more beautiful baby shower cake in my life! I almost want to try and make it myself just for kicks but who am I kidding? I can’t decorate a cake like this! But I know someone who can and ooooooooooooo I hope I see a beauty like this for my shower. MMMM HMMMM.
I also wanted to record that I still weigh 120lbs. Apparently all of my current weight and extra intake of food is being distributed straight to the baby and somehow, despite not being sick I haven’t gained any weight after my first trimester.
We are now officially in the 2nd trimester !
